the day the universe told me to lay off it
am i just bored
or am i hearing my intuition
lying on the back deck with the lighter on my chest so i don't forget where it is
where i usually stare at the stars
pull cards and light candles to haley heynderickx
like a february witch spells furiously for the autumn, knowing it's mere days away
tonight it's clouds and rain
but I persevere
my dog is wet and sad
this smoke tastes like bleach and im not enjoying it at all
my inner child - now a teen - sits next to me in the rain
she's proud of me, i've almost made it through law school
"You're really pretty," she says. "Thanks for looking after us."
I turn to her, lace our fingers and i kiss the back of our hands
"I tried, man. Now look at me, I'm here, the same feelings - remember?
They always fuck me up.
I'm a real loser, I should've been diagnosed sooner. I'm nowhere, I have everything I want and I'm still nowhere.
Now the world is burning and our only saving grace is that we were born in right minute."